Like a cock, sometimes you just have to harden the fuck up till you reach a point where you can relax.
It not my fault he’s too scared to trust me.
Just got my ticket to Dragon Dreaming! Can’t believe how well everything worked out. No shifts at work, free ride up with my new friend Ti, borrowed a tent from my Dad, now suddenly finding out that all these people i know from different parts of my life are coming too… perfection!
Desperate for some chiller zen time in nature.
I can feel myself critiquing, over analysing and fretting - letting fear of new-ness taking over, and bringing up memories of times I well and truly made a jack ass of myself.
It’s like I have two people inside of me: the first person is a stress head who is self critical and fake. And then there is the second voice that is realistic and peace loving. Voice one is fear, but voice two - the one I’m choosing to listen to - is telling me to relax and drink life in like a big glass of water, ignoring any negative things I may feel (knowing that they’re not even real) and forgive myself for things I did in the past.